Im everyone. 15. A gardener told me some plants move but i could not believe it.
|Me on my wedding day:||you still like me right|
I met her on Twitter and it was all started by her “Follow me back? :)” and we became the bestest friend and we knew we were loving each other and she wanted me to be her boyfriend but I was thinking we both were young and we’ll end up like split up after all.. until the time that I decided myself to do anything for her smile and happiness. I made a commitment to myself that I’ll definitely get her and I’ll be with her, and it pushed me going. I asked her to be my girlfriend finally after like almost a year since we met. We became a couple. I truly loved her and I still do even tho she doesn’t anymore. I had some relationships before this long distance relationship. But the time I spent with her was the happiest ever since I was born, I never felt such a really strong bond with anyone in my real life or never loved someone so much who made me think that I’ll do anything for her. I gave her promise ring on her birthday that says “Forever Together” and a few months later, she told me that she doesn’t know if she feels the same about me anymore. She told me she can’t give her love to me. We cried. But I couldn’t do anything for her, I did everything to get her love back. At the end she asked me to stay as best friends of course I said yes that I’ll always be there for her if she needs me and I was. But she started to ignore me often, or take super long to just reply my text. She never ignored me when we were in relationship.. It was really hurting you know. I was never ignored by the person I love until that moment it had hurt like hell but I understood that she really didn’t want me anymore. So I stopped all my effort to keep a conversation with her since she pretty much looked like she didn’t want to talk with me and ignore and we stopped talking. The last time we talked was my birthday and since that we never talked. It still hurts but I can’t do anything. But I won’t blame her, she has some depression, and it was getting big in her. I always supported her and tried to help her from that but at the end she pretty much hated having advise from me, she was like “Don’t teach me, you already told me about that like many times” I just said it many times because I wanted to make sure that she does it and I was sure that it makes her feel better if she does. She pretty much hated having advise from me. Saying “Remember blahblah” to her was already “teaching” for her. Though I just wanted to help her, I never meant to teach her something. Just advise but she was often pissed off when I give her advise. At first she was never like that, she always had ear for me and listened to me and tried to change it. But at the end she was someone different. She started to do bad things a lot, I tried to stop her from these things like I turned her into a good girl at the beginning of our relationship. But she never listened to me at the end. I know it’s her life and I did everything I could do for her and there’s nothing I can do. The more I try to get close to her, she just pushes me away. Her answer was always “I don’t know” if I asked her if she still wants me. So I gave up on her and stopped all my effort to keep her. I am still there for her if she needs me. But I know I will never try to get close to her by myself, it only hurts not being wanted by the person you love. Thank you for listening and trying to read such a long story, though my english is bad.